Find Joy

I am loving school, as I mentioned. So, why do I do all the complaining about the work or reading? My visiting teacher recommended to me to just enjoy it, because I do. It is easy for me to feel stressed out over ANYTHING! But, I LOVE what I am doing! Those two statements contradict. My feeling contradict! I don't have tiny children in the home. I have more freedoms than I have ever had. Have I conditioned myself to feel stressed out CONSTANTLY?

My neighbor gave me suggestions on keeping up with the reading I must do for my classes. I can do this! Keeping calm (not in my nature!) is my goal. Breathe deeply and lower the shoulders. Ahhhhhhh...doesn't that feel good?

to graduate or not to graduate

Bob will graduate next month. I will be taking more classes. Life would sure be easier if I weren't going to school. I love what I am doing, though. On June 24th I will be half way done. That means I will have finished 32 credits and have 33 credits left. Agh!

I guess I just have to eat the elephant one bite at a time. Just keep on truckin'!

Update

Anaise's comment, for my last post, was a great one. Come to find out, the family now has a favorite nurse at the hospital. She has been a nurse who gives them great hope for bringing this baby home. She gave them a blanket for the mom to sleep with for a couple days. Then, when they feed the baby, they can hold him in this blanket so he can smell his mommy. He is getting several drips of breast milk now. Also, the nurse said not to feel sorry for the baby. He has never experienced another life. I mean, he is the way he is and he doesn't know anything different. It reminds me of something my deaf teacher said. She says she doesn't miss music, she doesn't care about music and no one needs to feel sorry for her. She has never experienced it and she doesn't mind that at all. As for the baby, we are still waiting to see what is going to happen.

Baby

I haven't posted since Baby Energy. Yes, Dianna had an awesome experience with her great friend and neighbor. Everything was going along fine. The neighbor really appreciated Dianna's calming influence. Then the friend went to the hospital to deliver the baby. The baby was born with severe, severe problems. It has been a very sad and tumultuous time. The family is hoping the baby will live. The doctors are not sure if the baby will live. Everyday is like a roller coaster. Even if the baby lives, there will be severe problems, mental and physical. Dianna has been a fabulous support to her neighbor. The pain of this situation is extremely difficult. There was no clue given, before the birth, that there would be anything wrong. (Seems impossible that the doctors didn't catch this sooner.) The little baby is a sweet baby boy. It is weird to be close to this situation. I haven't known anyone, personally, while they were going through a situation such as this. It is hard to know what to pray. Dianna says she prays that the family can be strong in the faith, no matter what happens. I think that is a good prayer.

Baby Energy

Year ago my midwife told me I have 'baby energy'. I was good at bringing this energy to laboring mothers.

When Dianna was a young girl, I labored and birthed Heidi and Kelli. Dianna was one of my attendants. I labor by relaxing. She learned from her experiences with me. She now has four boys and she is an incredible birther! I have been blessed to be at all of her births and she has felt great comfort from my presence.

Today Dianna is helping her neighbor. The neighbor went into labor this morning and called Dianna. Dianna used techniques with her friend, the techniques she learned from my coaching her during her four births. Her friend felt so good about Dianna's words that she invited Dianna to come over and help her labor. The midwife is there and the husband came home from work and is there now, too.

Eventually, the woman will go to the hospital. She doesn't necessarily want a home birth. (She had an emergency C-section last time.)

I feel so happy for Dianna and to for this family. What a gift from Heavenly Father! Dianna has 'baby energy', too!